It's been a pretty rough week for me. I'm not one to complain, but here's a quick run down of some of the more major shitacular event's that have happened since Monday: - I'm almost certain I did not get the teaching position I applied for at my current school. This means they will hire someone else and that person will likely get all of the sections I've been teaching as an adjunct so after this Summer I will probably only have a class or two to teach.
- I auditioned for a freelance writing gig a few weeks ago and found out they selected someone else.
- My roommate for FitBloggin found out she can't go so I'm bummed I don't get to meet her, have a buddy to tour Portland with, and will likely pay the full amount on the hotel now instead of trying to find a new roomie.
- I had a traumatic experience at the doctors giving blood on Monday.
- Said trauma lead to the title of this post: I have Hashimoto's Thyroiditis.
The first number circled is my TSH level which should be between .4 - 4.50. The elevated TSH indicates my thyroid is working in overdrive and it is still not keeping the thyroid functioning at the level it should. Basically, it's exhausting itself. Ten years ago I went to various doctors/endocrinologists to see what could be causing some issues I was having at the time and bloodwork then indicated I was borderline Hashimoto's. Unsurprisingly, left untreated for a decade and it's developed into full blown Hashimoto's and now I get to take a pill for the rest of my life.
So, what is this awesome sounding Japanese disease? From wikipedia, some of the symptoms are: weight gain, depression, mania, fatigue, panic attacks, migraines, muscle weakness, cramps, memory loss, vision problems and infertility.
Those are just a few of the symptoms and I've particularly struggled with the fatigue, cramps and bouts of mild depression/panic attacks over the years. If you remember a few weeks ago I wrote up a post on over-exercising wondering if that was a reason why I was constantly tired. In a ironic way I'm so relieved now having an answer as to what has been going on. Knowing it's not me, or something I'm doing wrong in my diet/life.
What happens now? Well, I'm starting 50 mg of Synthroid tomorrow. It's a synthetic hormone that should bring my TSH level down to a normal range and the nurse said I should see a improvement in my symptoms within days. I'll have to keep my levels checked again in a month (fingers crossed it goes much better!) and make any adjustments in the dosage then. Of course I've spent hours online today researching Hashimoto's and managing symptoms and will also be trying to eliminate gluten from my diet as much as possible as it's known to cause symptoms to worsen. The other treatment idea I came up with?
It's pretty surreal to wonder what is going to happen over the next few weeks. Am I going to have way more energy? Will my mood noticeably improve? I'm excited to find out and share my experience with you all!
Another thing I've decided to try to commit to for my overall health - downing water like a boss. I'm aiming for 100 ounces a day. Did you know even the slightest bit of dehydration can have severe emotional and physical consequences? The stuff is free - drink up!
So, despite some slight road blocks in life this week I'm actually really happy knowing that everything happens for a reason. Plus, I love showing people that you can stay positive in any situation. It's so easy to see bloggers who seem to have perfect lives and no problems and are always happy and have their shit together. Well, that's not me - at all. I have no clue what I'm going to do for money after the Summer and Salem certainly isn't pulling his weight around here so it's all up to me. Things don't always go my way, but I can always choose how to react to things! It totally sucks that I didn't get either job I wanted but you know what - I think it's going to give me more time to focus on what I really, really want to do in my life. Write. Big things popping, ya'll.
If anyone has any experience with Hashimoto's please share your story! I'm so excited to learn everything I can about it and what to expect with treatment.